This summer has flown by. We have to move Lacey back to Springfield and into her sorority house this Sunday. She hasn't packed anything! A tiny part of delusional self hopes that means she's decided to stay home and hasn't told us! In reality I know it's going to happen and I just have accept it no matter how hard I try not to think.
I look back on the summer, we've spent a lot of time together. I'm thankful for the time. It's mostly been sitting in our living room! With my injured leg, her 9 month sleep deprivation, and all 4 wisdom teeth cut out, we haven't been out of the house a whole lot together.
I've loved it! I really have...but she has wrecked my living room. One day she was gone with a friend and it took me all day to clean the living room. She has decided the last week or two is craft time. Now I have paints, brushes, canvases, bowls, beads, glitter all over. I was really irritated until tonight.
Lacey is gone with friends to Branson for the day. Zane is at work all day and tonight. It's quiet in the house. I sat down in my recliner with my laptop. I looked over at the mess. I started to grumble. I looked on the end table and there lays Lacey's purse. Awww! Evidence that she is still home...she's not gone. YET!
I decided I better get busy doing something to take my mind off Sunday before I start feeling very sad! I start working on the web site. There's nothing on tv so I pull up my Itunes and start playing music. I'm working and jamming, forgetting everything else. Not one but two stupid songs play back to back.
The first was "You're Going To Miss This". That song is automatic, involuntary crying song. I have a love/hate relationship with the song! All work has ceased and I look over at Lacey's purse, then at her mess. I am going to miss this! I'm going to miss Lacey sitting 2 feet away from me!
If that wasn't bad enough, "There Goes My Life" played next. I'm both happy and sad she's not here to witness my tears. Happy and sad for the same reason, she would be laughing at me! I don't understand how she can hurt my feelings yet make me laugh uncontrollably at the same time.
Next week is going to be really quiet. I think that first week is the hardest to get thru!
Stupid songs... I was doing good. Stupid songs...
Now that Lacey is off at college, I find myself with way too much time to think. For me, thinking leads to worrying and worrying leads to worst case scenario. So I thought maybe blogging and putting some of my thoughts down might help myself. You never know, at some point I might come up with a clever thought or idea in the process!