Have you ever had a non life threatening, life flash before you moments? I did last night.
Lacey was home for Labor Day weekend. It was the first time in a month she has been home. Everything was right in my world! Then she left again!
I was sulky and shed a few tears. I took my iPod to bed with me and turned on music instead of the TV to fall asleep.
The second song to come on was "Baby Mine". This was a song that I have sung to Lacey her whole life. In that instance 21 years of Lacey cuddling up in bed, holding her hands and singing her to sleep flashed before my eyes. I saw and felt her hands through each stage of life!
The tears poured! I thought about how "Baby Mine, don't you cry" had different meanings over the years. I thought of how much she has grown and matured over the years. It mad me sad but oh so happy too.
I thanked God for giving me the flashbacks, the live memories.
Lacey recently celebrated her 21st birthday. I can see a lot of changes in her, almost instantly from that day! She's matured. I miss the newborn, the baby, the toddler, the tween, and even the teen, but I also love this new stage we are in and seeing Lacey grow and blossom warms my heart!
Now that Lacey is off at college, I find myself with way too much time to think. For me, thinking leads to worrying and worrying leads to worst case scenario. So I thought maybe blogging and putting some of my thoughts down might help myself. You never know, at some point I might come up with a clever thought or idea in the process!